einai tosa polla..

..pou thelw na grapsw.. tosa polla! pernane toses skepseis ap to mualo mou.. opws proxtes pou hthela pali na rthw na grapsw anarthsh alla de prolavaina. tha to grapsw twra. hthela loipon na pw gia mia hlikia evaisthhth, pou kaneis den thn ektima opws tha prepe.. oute thn niwthoume. thn paidikh. oloi viazonte na megalwsoun.. eidika shmera, pragmatika, to pistevw oti auth h hlikia den uparxei pia. ap ta paradeigmata pou exw gurw mou me pianei apelpisia. gamwto! einai toses ts*%les pragmatika! kai einai oles tou stil 'de me noiazei ti tha poun oi gurw mou, mono autoi pou magapane'! giati mwre, exeis gnwrisei esu agaph? mono twn goniwn sou, pou kai authn thn parameleis kai thn petas sta skoupidia gia na deijeis poso apeleutherwmenh, poso ajia, dunath kai magkaki eisai! am den eisai magkaki! ena kakomoiriasmeno eisai pou an pote paei mprosta sth zwh tou, tha nai epeidh ekatse se kana gerojekouth pou thelei na spatalhsei ta leutakia tou! h kati palikarakia pou de dinoun shmasia sta aisthhmata twn allwn gurw tous. de pa na xoun tsakisei psuxologies! sto kentro grammeno to xoun. de pa na tous deixnoun otan proxwrane? kamari to xoun. pare loipon xampari kai katalave oti kalo tha htan na hsoun ANTHRWPOS. na xeis aisthhmata. na agapas. na pisteveis sthn psuxh twn allwn. na mh fovasai. na dineis mia agkalia, pote de jeres pote th xreiazete perissotero kapoios. na prosexeis. esena, ta logia sou, th sumperifora sou kai ta dikaiwmata pou dineis. na zeis. na mh kollas se mia othonh, se mia kafrila, se mia stasimh aniarh zwh. na mathaineis. to na diavazeis den einai ntroph. swsth skepsh einai. na mh thewreis oti auto pou diavazeis einai axrhsto. sto sxoleio prwta prwta phgainoume gia duo logous: na mathoume na sumperiferomaste swsta, kai na apokthsoume domhmenh skepsh. auth einai h zwh mas telos pantwn. dejou to. otan vazeis ena stoxo, mhn ton afhneis gia aurio, aurio mporei na sumvei otidhpote. mh peis de kanw auto giati variemai. h varemara telika einai megaalh arrwstia. polu megalh. anyway..

ti titlo vazoume edw twra?

ton teleutaio kairo kathomai kai skeftomai genika gia tous anthrwpous. exw katalhjei se ena sumperasma, pws exoume allotriwthei. den uparxei empistosunh, den uparxoun ajies, den uparxei agaph, den uparxei sevasmos, den uparxei pisth, den uparxei katajiwsh, den uparxei euprepeia. o kathenas skeftetai mono gia ton eauto tou xwris na analogizetai gia tous allous gurw tou. dra me plhrh afosiwsh sto na kataferei ton stoxo tou me to opoio timhma. wres wres me kanoun na pistevw oti mono to sumferon uparxei. kai auto me tromazei. vasika ton teleftaio kairo, tromazw suxna. kai me otidhpote. me geloia pragmata. niwthw san na janaginomai paidi, ena paidi pou mporeis na to foviseis eukola. fovamai to skotadi-jana [apo pentaxrono eixa na to pathw], fovamai na perpathsw to vradu monh mou stous dromous, akoma kai meshmeria otan pernaw apo erhmika merh, kai eidika an dw tipota periergous tupous trigurw thelw na to vallw sta podia. kai giati perikalw? giati me tosa pou akoume, me tosa pou vlepoume exw mpei sth logikh, afou to pathe autos, kallista tha mporousa na to pathw kai gw. de nomizw oti ginontai kai diakriseis.! kai poioi anthrwpoi eithistai na kanoun kako stous allous? autoi akrivws pou sumperiferontai atomistika, katatasoun tous allous se klikes, kai monh tous douleia mera nuxta einai na 'klepsoun'. eite ulika antikeimena, eite hthika-pnevmatika. autoi pou jeroun pws mporoun kuriolektika na dialusoun thn psuxologia tou allou. kai autos einai o logos pou fovamai. DE GOUSTARW OMWS NA FOVAMAI GAMWTO! thelw na hsuxasw ligo, kai de mporw!! kai furthermore, autos einai o logos pou apexthanomai tous kafrous. me poio dikaiwma panivlaka sumperiferese etsi? nai re file, exw to xeri mu se shmeio pou exei to mati sou optikh epafh me auto, SOU THIJA? ante kai parata mas re -.- kai to kako einai pws oloi autoi, se ligo kairo tha vgoun sth koinwnia, kai auto einai to xeirotero. an kanoun etsi mesa sta sxoleia, skepsou poso trampoukistika kai apaisia tha feronte molis vgoun ap auta! kai den einai ligoi. einai polloi[einai girww maaas, mas parakolouthouuuuuun XD]. an twra mas spane ta neura, skepsou meta! entometaju, gurnas gurw gurw to mati sou, kai auto pou vlepeis einai: paidakia pou exoun mpei sto nohma tou kafrou, koritsakia pou exoun mpei sto nohma ths dhthen, ths famous-mh xesw re file-, gia na mhn anaferw tis whores ;) kai 'pwpw egw auto, kai pwpw egw ekeino, kai ax agaphh mouu, kai ax 3 meres kollhtarias[exoun gnwristei antistoixo xroniko diasthma], kai : soula mou sagapw, de tha xwrisoume pote -koula mou sagapw, de tha xwrisoume pote, -roula mou sagapw, de tha xwrisoume pote'. 1 mera meta 'ax vre kalo mu, ti vlammenes pou nai h koula kai h roula kai h soula! mono esu ajizeis sagapw'-klassikh karamela-. h to allo fantastiko, pou kathe duo vdomades allazoun gomenous. kai kei pou sou analuei ti kako pou epathe pou den ths ekatse enas, jafnika sou petaei ena: alla uparxei kai autos kai autos kai autos [x 1000
"autos"]. kai meta 5 lepta: ax den antexw, vres mou gomeno!!! [what da fuck :S]
gia na mhn anaferw kai kati paidia pou gamwto, einai toso ejupna, kai anti na to ekmetaleutoun, junontai olh mera :S
telos pantwn.. spasthka twra -.- an katsw na to analusw allo paizei na gurisei se polu filosofia-katastash to thema, kai de thelw twra :p

aman, h katantia tous :/

giati kapoies fores apla ajizei na diavazeis LiFO.

sto teuxos pou kukloforise 21-27.01.2010 p.60[betime stories]. egw mporei kai na mhn to katetasa ekei. pare loipon na xeis..

H pragmatikh istoria ths O.
h authentikh istoria tou Silverstain, gia osous den thn gnwrizoun, einai h ejhs: "to kommati-pou-leipei kathotan monaxo tou.. perimenontas kapoion na erthei kai na to paei kapou. kapoioi tou tairiazan.. alla den mporousan na kulhsoun. alloi mporousan na kulhsoun, alla den tou tairiazan. enas den eixe idea ti shmainei tairiasma. enas htan polu euaisthhtos. enas allo to anevase se vathro.. kai to afhse ekei.! se kapoious eleipan polla kommatia. kai, telos pantwn, kapoioi alloi eixan parapanw kommatia. alloi kulousan kai to jepernousan xwris na to antilhfthoun. prospathhse na ginei pio elkustiko.. adikos kopos... prospathhse na ginei pio fantaxtero... alla to mono pou katorthwse htan na fovisei tous ntropalous. telika, hrthe ena kommati pou tou tairiaze apoluta.
jafnika... to kommati-pou-leipei arxise na megalwnei.. "den hjera oti tha megalwseis"."oute kai gw to hjera" eipe to kommati-pou-leipei. "psaxnw gia to kommati pou mou leipei, ena kommati pou den tha megalwsei...". wspou, mia mera, hrthe kapoios pou fainotan diaforetikos. "ti theleis apo mena?" rwthse to kommati-pou-leipei. "tipota". "ti exeis anagkh na sou dwsw?". "tipota". "poios eisai?" rwthse to kommati-pou-leipei. "eimai to megalo O" eipe to megalo O.
"nomizw pws autos pou perimena eisai esu" eipe to kommati-pou-leipei. "mhpws eimai to kommati pou sou leipei?". "omws de mou leipei kanena kommati" eipe to megalo O. "den uparxei xwros pou tha mporouses na tairiajeis". "krima..." eipe to kommati-pou-leipei, "hlpiza pws tha mopousa na kulhsw mazi sou...". "de mporeis na kulhseis mazi mou" eipe to megalo O. "alla isws mporeseis na kulhseis mono sou". "mono mou? ena kommati-pou-leipei den mporei pota na kulhsei mono tou". "alhtheia, prospathhses pote?" rwthse to megalo O. "oi gwnies mou einai polu muteres" eipe to kommati-pou-leipei. "den eimai ftiagmeno gia na kulaw". "oi gwnies kai ta sxhmata allazoun" eipe to megalo O. "telos pantwn, prepei na se apoxairetisw. isws janasunaththoume kapoia mera". kai kulhse makria. to kommati-pou-leipei emeine pali mono tou. gia polu kairo aplws kathotan... meta, siga siga, shkwthhke sth mia tou gwnia... kai epeita swriasthke pali. meta, shkw,-trava-pese... arxise na proxwraei... suntoma oi gwnies tou arxisan na strogguleuoun... shkw, trava, pese... kai to sxhma tou arxise na allazei.. kai sunama na tinazetai anti na sernetai.. kai epeita na anaphdaei anti na tinazetai... kai sto telos na kulaei anti na apanhdaei... den hjere pros ta pou phgaine, kai den to enoiaze. kulouse!"

sto vivlio o Silverstain deixnei me skitsa to kommati-pou-leipei sto telos na xei ginei kuklos kai na kulaei wspou sunanta to megalo O kai kulane mazi. kai fusika thelei na pei oti thn oloklhrwsh kai thn agaph tha thn vroume prwta mesa mas kai einai alhtheia o,ti pio sugkinhtiko exei grafei gia to tajidi tou anthrwpou me skopo na vrei thn agaph.
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auta htan loipon ta pragmata pou hthela na anevasw apo th selida auth. ta upoloipa de mas aforoun amesa :p



auto twra einai ena tragoudi pou paizei na mou xei kollhsei asxhma ton teleutaio kairo:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yXaYdeS69S8
apisteuta omws
anyway :p

zhse twra to twra kai oxi argotera.

uparxoun polloi logoi gia na to kanei kapoios auto. kai omws de to katalavainoume panta. kanoume oneira gia to mellon xwris na koitazoume to paron. TREXOUME gia to aurio kai auta pou zoume SHMERA ta parameloume. kai omws. uparxoun stigmes, merikes fores arga, merikes alles nwris, pou etsi jafnika sou rxete analamph. oti jereis, prepei na zhseis to twra TWRA, kai oxi argotera. kati tetoio katalava shmera. poso eukola pernaei h xronia. menoun 15 vdomades mexri to telos. kai me epiase ena anxos, ti sto kalo exw kataferei fetos. klassikh Clodia, vazei stoxous. e ntajei, kati vrhka. den eimai kai axrhsth :p pantws eipa na zhsw mia fora th stimgh, sa stigmh, giati h stigmh pou zeis einai afth pu tha mporouse na se kanei eutuxismeno. ws gnwston, meta apo wres filosofias(!) eftasa sto vasiko sumperasma, oti h eutuxia, den einai kati sugkekrimeno, den einai mia periodos, einai polles diaspartes stigmes sth zwh mas. oses pio polles exeis, toso pio polu mporeis na peis oti eisai eutuxismenos. kai kati vasiko gia na einai olo kai pio polles, einai na xamogelas. alhtheia, prepei na nai metadotiko, ena pragma sa to xasmourito. to opoio by the way, metadidetai kai mesw thlefwnou! anyway, jefeugw. ti na jefugw dhladh, afou auta pou eixa na pw, ta eipa. ara end. gia shmera toulaxiston :p a, kai kati epiprostheto: planwmetha otan leme oti o kairos perna. o kairos steketai. emeis pername.